I’ve spent a lot of time fuckin up, seems that i can never do enough
I need a chance to show that i can cut it, and make something of myself.
My life is a series of narrow victories i didn’t earn.
Turns out when you struggle with something, you always win or you learn.
I’ve spent a lot of time losin track of what I need to do to make you proud
Maybe it’s time your pride is something that I decide I can do without
The pressure’s on! I’m gonna cave if I have to be led by hand
I’m flying solo from now on, I decide where I land.
(BADASS TRUMPET SOLO)
I don’t wanna be alone, wonder where i’ll end up. Cuz right now all this help you’re giving me just hurts. I know everything you do is in good will. But it’s just too much.
I spend a lot of time inside my head, what used to be my shelter now i find i dread
I’m gonna try to find a way to show you that i can do this without help
Holy grails and fountains of youth I feel like I’m grasping at air
I’m gonna find a new direction, my current path heads nowhere
I’ll never be your version of perfect, I’m gonna stray
Scrutiny I feel from all directions, leads me the wrong way
I’m gonna break away!
I’ve spent a lot of time fuckin up, but honestly I feel I’ve done enough
I know that I will do something I’m proud of if I can just be myself!
The debut LP from Allen Epley (Shiner, The Life and Times) blends '70s-style folk/pop songwriting with dreamy, swirling alt-rock. Bandcamp New & Notable Jan 10, 2023